Sunday, March 21, 2004
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
- 1 Peter 5:6-9 NIV
It's a little chilly outside right now. It's high tide. Saw a propoise just beyond the breakers, swimming north a little earlier, same direction as most of the seagulls. Must be going to church or something.
We're driving back later this morning. It's been a good weekend - no responsibility past taking showers and paying for merchandise and dinners out. A little shopping, a lot of seafood - sometimes, it don't get any better than this. But it's time to head back home, and that's where I get to find out if it was a "good vacation" or not. Tomorrow I'll be back at work, Vicki will be teaching, kids will be back at school. Tomorrow I've got class, bills to pay, deadlines. Tomorrow I'll have to commute to work, interact with people who didn't get a weekend at the beach, and remember to not gloat about that. Tomorrow, there will be responsibility, a call to do what we've been called to do.
It's so easy to fall into the rut of just existing. I'm reading UPRISING (McManus), and he says as much in the opening paragraphs of chapter one. Whether it's people at church, getting on your nerves because you feel they're just not getting it, or it's people at work who you feel are just not getting it, or it's *you* crying out to God, "I just don't get it" - we settle for "just enough" and do "just enough" to get by. And we find ourselves merely existing rather than really living.
Really living isn't necessarily a lazy weekend at the beach. There's got to be more than this, too. But this was a start to something that I hope will knock me out of the rut and allow me to play and live a little more intentionally.